By Joseph Nardoni
The coffin slid back into the red
placental blaze, the door swung
shut, like life’s own womb prolapsed inward—
she was gone to ash and atmosphere.
He returned to empty house rustles,
open-curtained shadows
falling from the lips of an end table
graced with a dusty coaster and a beer glass,
bottom coated in dried foam. He sat hunched,
cradled in the old wing-backed chair by his lost angel,
refusing to rise to the rings of the telephone,
the wet trills in his ears abject, nightly noises his good friends
did not know drove him out to Hooksett like a backwards angler
where she danced, the stripper ex-student,
wounded foster child and former sergeant in the Corps
tribal barbs glowing on her arm in the spotlights,
the deeper, trebled soul scars
shared in painful essays, his course a hot crucible
she took three times and failed to finish,
a basic-training washout—
Who dropped it all for foots and kliegs
and the long silver prick that never went soft,
blonde curls bouncing while men locked languid lips
around long-necked beers and dreamed dry-mouthed
fantasies they paid for later, “More money,” she’d said
“than any job I can get with a degree from here.”
Her blue-eyed recognition immediate
as he sat, hanging green on the railing
like dirty laundry, the tens and twenties
the lost, glass-bottomed coral reef trip dream
his life love’s death stole from him
vanishing like a zombie’s day dream:
brains fricassee, brains and sausage gumbo,
brains crisped in garlic and olive oil,
served on a silver platter engraved with memories
only he, the undead one could feast on.
Her performance over, she served him
beer and an invitation to a private dance
where she called him “Professor,”
her hips spinning big eyed belladonna promise
as she reminded him, “You told me I was better than this,”
those words that he saw now had nicked
the corners of her eyes as her lashes rose and fell
while his wallet emptied. She smiled as she pushed
his musky-dusky drug of choice, her nipples pink and wobbly
like two Devil’s Cherry sundaes ripe for picking.
“I’m off at two, rent a room down the street,
it’s old, but reasonably clean,” where he waited,
wallet refilled with ATM donations
until she knocked,
lipped the money from leather folds,
her prehensile tongue folding the bills
into her hand, knowing too behind
her shaded eyes how sad it really was
his toes curled only when she took
him to the screaming moment,
semen slipping and dripping from the tips of her lips,
her face two years too old to be doing this–
deep, meat-cigarette laugh lines and sucking
belly laughs she spat up
into the worn porcelain sink,
pink mold rimming the trap seal
as the water washed it all away.