k.r. taylor
i shed my layers
to the bedroom floor
and my discomfort and uncertainty
of being bare had me wandering into
the comfort of curiosity
because in those moments of removing
pieces of what steered me clear of vulnerability
i swore my skin came off too
like some kind of lizard girl turning into woman
at the hands of a man who traced the curves of my body
like he was mapping out
everything that had ever happened to me
(he certainly wasn’t)
it felt as if it was
out in the open
that my skin was gone and
every wall was knocked down
and this body was just
a shell of horrors
and a little girl begging to be met with gentle hands
(and he had done so, that time)
the floor held my clothes gently
as i sighed and ached
until i was filled
with shame and a glass of tap water
and this night became
the beginning of wondering
if this body
will ever be mine again
or if i shed who i was
when i realized
he would never ever be naked in ways
that have nothing to do with skin